Hide in You Shell

Hide in Your Shell

He watches his co-clown as they take bow. He remembers what has first brought her into his life, how she has come back. He is lost in thought and he doesn’t move until the ringmaster hisses at him to get off stage. They call her the girl with dead eyes. Staring deep into her eyes, he wonders what goes on in her heart.

How does she mask her eyes so well? He can mask his emotions with ease, but he has never been able to hide his feelings in his eyes.

+++Hide in your shell

Cos the world is out to bleed you for a ride
What will you gain, making your life a little longer?
Heaven or Hell, was the journey so cold

That it gave you eyes of steel?
Shelter behind

Painting your mind and playing joker+++

It is 11:00 at night. Their trailers are right beside each other so he has an excuse to walk with her. For the first time in his life, he feels a strange need to break the silence. As they get to her trailer, he tells her good night. She seems shocked for a moment but responds in a voice so softly she is not sure whether or not he can hear her.

‘Good night. . .’

+++Too Frightening to listen to a stranger
Too Beautiful to put your pride in danger
You're waiting for someone to understand you
But you've got demons in your closet
And you're screaming out to stop it
Saying life's begun to cheat you
Friends are out to beat you
Grab on to

What you scramble for+++

She flops onto her bed, for once in a decent mood.

With tears threatening to spill from her eyes, she sobs.

‘I’m such a self-pitying weakling. A filthy worm, I’m lower than DIRT.’

And she hates herself.

+++Don't let the tears linger on inside now
Cos it's sure time you gained control
If I can help you, if I can help you
If I can help you. . .

Just let me know
Well, let me show you the nearest signpost
To get your heart back and on the road
If I can help you, if I can help you
If I can help you. . .

Just let me know.+++

He watches her from the window. He can’t help it. He watches her cry every night, he wants to help but she is always unconsciously pushing everyone away. Just like he once did, until his best friend befriended him. He will have to try as hard as he, and never give up on a possibly impossible friendship. Yes, he’ll try.

And then,

someday,

maybe something more. . .

+++All through the night,

As you lie awake and hold yourself so tight
What do you need,

A second-hand-movie-star to tend you?
I, as a boy,

I believed the saying the cure for pain was love
How would it be,

If you could see the world through my eyes?+++

There she lies, dreaming, reflecting, crying. Remembering, and regretting. He can’t stand it.

He bursts into her trailer, calling her name.

Then, he sees the knife she is clutching.

+++Too Frightening - The fire's getting colder
Too Beautiful- To think you're getting older
You're looking for someone to give an answer.
But what you see is just an illusion
You're surrounded by confusion
Saying life's begun to cheat you
Friends are out to beat you
Grab on to what you can scramble for
Don't let the tears...
... just let me know
I wanna know...
I wanna know you...
Well let me know you
I wanna feel you
I wanna touch you
Please let me near you
Can you hear what I'm saying?
Well I'm hoping,

I'm dreamin',

I'm prayin'
I know what you're thinkin'
See what you're seein'
Never ever let yourself go+++

He hears himself scream

‘NO!’

He tackles her, and pries the knife out of her fingers.

‘Why did you stop me?!’ she says hoarsely.

Crying now, he says:

‘That is a stupid question!’

She turns her eyes away.

‘Trust me, you’re the only one who gives a damn. It. . .it’s better this way.’

+++Hold yourself down,

Hold yourself down,
Why d'ya hold yourself down?
Why don't you listen,

You can trust me,
There's a place I know the way to
A place there is need to feel you
Feel that you're alone
Hear me
I know exactly what you're feelin'
Cos all your troubles are within you
Please begin to see

That I'm just bleeding to
Love me,

Love you
Loving is the way to
Help me, help you
- Why must we be so cool, oh so cool?
Oh, we're such damn fools...+++

‘No. No, it’s not. I was just like you. . .pretending nothing was wrong. . .but inside, it was anything but. You’re not going to go through this alone. Trust me on this.’

‘. . .’

‘PLEASE, I will not stand by and watch. No matter what you say, I’ll be here. I. . .I want to help, but you’ve got to let me! Promise me. . .’

Tears flow freely down her face. But this time, she smiles, the first time in a long time.

‘I promise. . .

. . .but. . .why?’

‘That’s a stupid question.’ He smiles. ‘I love you.’

END

Well, is it ok? I hope so. Don’t kill me if you don’t like it, k?

Srry, this is my very first fanfic of ANYTHING (ok, I wrote a pokémon fanfic when I was like in grade 3. . .it sucks. Aaghhh. . .I hate being a perfectionist). It’s my first songfic too, and I wrote it in only one night when I was supposed to be doing my math homework. Shh, don’t tell.

Ooh, I almost forgot.

DISCLAIMER: *deep breath* I do not own anything here cuz if I did it would prolly mean I was a genius to be able to think something this cool up so that would mean I would not be attending this little school I go to. So, yeah, I don’t own. Hey cool, I noticed I didn’t mention a single name. Character name, that is. oh, well. . .I don’t own the song, that’s for sure. Um. . .let’s just say I don’t own Supertramp, the song ‘hide in your shell’, GW or pokémon, anything else that someone else owns. Of course. Yeah, that’s it.

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